Woah, what a day today.

I had one of those emotional days. damn, it was bad. I never knew regretting a decision about coming to a jc could lead to so many mishaps. Then again, i had Farihin and Fauzi to calm me down. Thanks bimbo and buttcheeks!(:

I know that now's the time when I'm being really fickle minded about what I want to be when i grow up, or what i hope to achieve at the end of this teenage life. I know i want to get a degree, in what, nobody knows but myself. At least I'm supposed to know. To my surprise, i don't. I have no effing clue and that's really pissing me off. The very precise fact of my life that everyone should be proud to announce, I have no single idea about. How planned out.

It's too late for regrets now, just make the most of things?

Well, if it doesn't work out for you at the end of the day, then turn around and try again?

Jc route could have been a route that was not my wish, but i took it anyway.Promos coming in about 20 days, and i'm nowhere near my books. I can't get myself to sit and revise like how i used to. & why?

Cause i don't feel like i want to.

Is that reason concrete enough ?

cause i don't seem to be able to think of anything else right now. I'm blank!

I'm on the verge of giving it up and it's obvious right from now.

I can't seem to detect my capabilities anymore.

It's almost out of my reach.

And now, all I'm doing is dragging myself to school every morning, handing in assignments half-heartedly and really turning away from A levels.

All i was trying to do right from the start is to make them proud, but i guess i forgot about myself.

It's funny how some horoscopes turned out to be freakishly coincidentally true.

If people are trying to put restrictions onto what you can do, today, ask yourself what their motivations might be. Your goals are important, and you should be able to follow any path you think is the right path to follow. If someone is telling you to go another way, they might have a vested interest in slowing down your progress -- keep that in mind. There's no need to assume that everyone has bad intentions, but you should understand that you don't have to believe every word they say.

& you, were a huge mistake. Call me a badass, but please know that that doesn't take away your player title. I had my stand, do you?