A Wednesday,

the day i'm supposed to be running my ass off on the field.

the day that's supposed to be the best of all days for the weekdays.

the day that i'm usually laughing a hell lot with the usuals

again, the day im supposed to push myself to the limit where i'd think it's the end of my legs.

the day i'm supposed to be so beat out from school that i'd just jump on that bed abandoning any thoughts of tutorials or revisions, wishing i'd just die the very next day from all the fatigue

the day that i have a 60% chance of limping in school the next day

the day that will have my mom sitting next to me, messaging my legs and her usual babbles on the 2131432486016548683 reasons i shouldn't have a boyfriend at this age.

the day i'd usually feel very much satisfied with myself cause of the fact that i managed to get pass the training for the day.

In short, i was supposed to be having touch rugby training today.

& where was I?

Chemistry spa.

I missed my class phototaking for it. JUST FOR ONE PAPER

Alright, i admit it. That's not the factor that's ruining my Wednesday.

I guess this isn't my day, not the best of moods definitely.

I'm really getting fed up with my fluctuating emotions.

trust me, if i never was born with a brain, i'll just be a slave to these emotions.

But how is it fair that things are happening in this reckless speed, and you're caught off guard.

You try to think in a mature manner and fix things but somehow, at the end of the day you're punished for it. & i have no idea whatever the reason is. Is it cause you took far too long to try to make it right ?

It's like I'm in a race against mistakes.

But again and again, i'm always at the losing end.

They always say, everyone makes mistakes. It's okay to fail.

But it isn't the same when you make whoppers and whoppers!

But do i let myself frown over it all?

At least i've been trying not to let it get to me as much as many other girls may take it.

I'm still trying, very much.

Nevertheless, i'm just feeling really contented with what exists in my life.

Very good friends.

Every single one of them

I need a dose of this.

Really really do.

Meanwhile, this is an effed up situation.