Time check: 0420am
mood check: No idea

Have you ever wished you could read minds? I desperately wish for it. It could be a form of invasion of privacy but I can’t help to develop that curiosity of wanting to know more than what you actually see from his actions. His texts could showcase something but his actions are portraying something different. Not totally, but there is little resemblance. I’m not sure how much media can distract someone from reality but I’m pretty sure it can to a certain extent that you just don’t know whether he’s really interested or not. That is why having that ability to read minds would be very useful during times like this. Think about it, if you can read what he’s really thinking and feeling, you wouldn’t have to guess or interpret unnecessary mixed signals anymore and then, you can sort out your own feelings and then maybe coming up with a conclusion, benefiting both parties. You get what I mean ?

Man, I hate reading and watching out for signs. I’d rather be Holly in PS I Love You and watch out for signs from Gerry. At least he was so obvious at the first part about what he’s really feeling!

I should stop wishing for something that is practically impossible as long as you’re still on this Earth. I wish I’m in HEROES now. Okay, stop it Nurul. You’re getting your hopes up too high that it’s even overshadowing the New York Skyline or the Malaysia’s twin towers! God, I am crapping .

I haven’t been feeling myself today. The meet up with the superstars was still an exception though. Those girls are just the medication to a low day. We had fun as you know it.

The starbucks madness.

The toilet after frappe madness.

( those are the ever so infamous buttcheeks)

I was kinda grounded for awhile there since I reached home late yesterday. I wouldn’t technically call that late since I passed wayyyy after curfew before, compared to the few hours yesterday. Even the girls were caught by surprise when I told them the time I reached home after movie marathon yesterday. Oh btw, Faiz’s mom was so nice to us yesterday! She ordered pizza although we knew it was already too much coming from them who already provided a place for that small gathering, but I guess we didn’t have the heart to say no once we saw the boxes of that cheesy licking goodness! We caught Prom night, jumper and Vantage point. The indon horror movie didn’t work out and it was my bad there! Sorry guys.

I wish reading minds is possible.
& how I wish horoscopes are real.

“Today, you should start to sense that a new beginning is coming in an old relationship. What had become routine almost to the point of feeling stale is slowly but surely having new life breathed into it -- it's almost like a whole new ballgame, now. There's no way of knowing what has caused this resurrection of your deep feelings, but you should be grateful for it. New things are possible, and you should open your mind to that fact. It's okay to have hope again.”

Are they?

I’ll be away, again. A couple of days. It’s not like he cares anyway.

Pardon me for the foul mood these past few posts. I just realized it. I promise it’ll be different soon. Right now, its just weird how many people can detect stuff they claim is obvious and clear card but not to him at all.

Isn’t that odd?
Being so near, yet so far.